Dreams

The experts say –

Digression: Any time you read “The experts say” make sure you ask ‘Which experts? From where? How long have they been studying this? From where did they get their funding?’ All good questions that I’m not going to document for this post – I’ve done some reading on the subject, you can do your own research if you’re really interested. End of digression.

– that humans dream every night. I’ll take their word for it (for now), but if I am dreaming every single night, I certainly don’t remember most of my dreams.

I used to have recurring dreams (no, not about guys or sex, darn it!) but, although I can still remember a few of them, I haven’t actually dreamed (dreamt?) them in many years.

I still have anxiety dreams. I used to have them at the beginning of every semester. The most recent one was just before my presentation at the Hawaii Library Association’s Annual Conference in November 2005 (which actually went very well).

My dreams usually make no sense. The “experts” say dreams are a way for the mind to ponder daytime problems and suggest solutions. Well, if my mind is coming up with solutions while I sleep, it’s not sharing them once I wake up.

In my dreams, places are not identifiable, they change suddenly and randomly, people morph into other people, a person will be an amalgamation of two or more people – confusing stuff like that. So, except for the anxiety dreams – I grok those – I’ve managed to convince myself that my dreams usually don’t mean anything.

Until I have one that might.

What do I do then?

Do I try to struggle with deciphering the meaning? Or do I get a drink of water and go back to sleep?

Last night I had a dream that really shook me. I tried to tell myself that it couldn’t possibly mean what it seemed to mean. When that didn’t work, I started a dream journal (my mind, wisely, made me make no promises on how long I will keep it going).

I was worried that thinking about it and writing it out might wake me up too much and I wouldn’t be able to get back to sleep, but it worked out okay. I had another dream, but it didn’t make as much of an impact as the first, so I didn’t remember it for long or record it.

But that first one is still front-and-center this morning and I have a feeling it’s going to stick with me for a long time....